At Disney World for my 6th Birthday

Birthdays are an entirely different breed once you hit 30.  You have grown out of gift years, there's are no milestones until you hit 50 and well, as you count each passing year go by you just think how on earth the last year went so fast.

I was listing to that John Mayer song the other day...the one about his lunchbox.  Well, in 1983, we were both 6 and everytime I hear him singing it I start to wonder what my 6 year old self would think of my current, as of today, 34 self.  Am I the adult I always imagined I would be?  Its weird thinking about the people I saw in my day to day life when I was 6.  Just about every single one of those teachers, parents and friends of my parents were younger then I am right now.  That however is a surreal realization that I can't even begin to think about in depth...we'll leave for another post.

So way back in 1983, what was I envisioning Sierra at 34 would be like?  I desperately wanted to be a designer of something, and to have my old business.  My daydreams were always about work, I don't think I ever thought much about a husband and kids, although I surprised myself for having a dog a I love so deeply, I never thought I would be a woman who had dogs for kids.  I still am shooting for the dream of living on an ocean, I however have not found the ocean I want to live on yet, so that's on the back burner.

I think that my 6 year old self would be a tad disappointing that I don't wear a suit everyday...blame it on  Baby Boom, 9 to 5 and Working Girl, but I really thought that fabulous women wore suits to work.  I do however think that my 6 year old self would forgive me and clap for joy when she was handed the keys to my apartment and my car, as 6 year old Sierra wanted more then anything to have her own pad and an awesome set of wheels.

I think the cherry and whipped cream on top though would be that 6 year old Sierra never thought to think that my jewelry which I designed and made with my own hands would be on the pages of those magazines I would look at even at the young age of 6.  I never in my wildest dreams was able to imagine that I would sit in my mothers kitchen and watch tv stars parade around on a successful show in that jewelry as well.  Twice.  I think my 6 year old self would be over the moon about that...and that she would be oh so proud of me.

I also think that 6 year Sierra, who was shy and a bit anti social would be shocked at how many wonderful friends I have made over the years, at how many emails, texts, phone calls and facebook messages have come pouring in on the morning of my 34 birthday, making me feel loved beyond belief.

I spent the morning at my computer...drinking coffee, eating cupcakes which my littlest sister surprised me with at midnight and looking through birthday wishes.  I read through my daily blog roll and planned my day in the studio, which will mainly consist of photographing my new line that I am super excited about.  As I sat there with my dog on my lap, I realized that this is perhaps the happiest birthday morning I've had since my 6th birthday at Disney World.