The past month or so has been a true test to how far I can go to the edge of a nervous breakdown without actually loosing my mind. For the past few week I have been riding the tightrope of sanity. Not sure if the vacation helped or made it all so much worse as I have had to not only play catch up with work, but I lost my motivation a bit and have had to struggle to get it going again. There just seems to be an endless amount to do work wise and I have been trying so hard to balance having a life and business, but am starting to wonder if its possible. I very often just wish I had one single day off from Manic Trout and the “day job”…just one day a week where I do not have to manage a staff and work a 15 hour day. I don’t want to bitch about it, and I love my life…but some of the time it just starts to weigh you down. My biggest panic inducing problem right now is that I got the bright idea last year to release two lines a year…one in Spring and one in the late Fall. In between I would only produce one of a kind pieces. Yeah, that idea sucked. It was really stupid and now I am paying the price by having the longest lull in press that I have ever seen, because it has been so damn long since I have released anything new. 100% my own stupid fault. Well, the good news is, I learned my lesson, realized I made a mistake, won’t do it again and am trying a different approach this year. Bad news…no press means not much going on, which means I’m pretty bummed out about business right now. So here I am, trying to work through the mess I created and get back on track. Sometimes I wish I could be content doing less in life.